When it is over it is over

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originally uploaded by Fiber Maiden.

So, I have been in a bit of a tail spin these last weeks. This prego thing is proving to be a bit harder this time around. When I am not being sick I am almost being sick or starving. Everything makes me cry and I quit my job. Basiclly ever since I told my boss that I was prego he has treated me badly. Including taking away hours, my keys to the shop, and my Amex card. So, when I got the point that he doesn't want me around anymore I gave in a months notice. At which time he asked me to consider leaving sooner because I was a real bummer to be around. WOW! I wish I could have thrown up right there on his desk, but instead I cried like a baby and gathered my things off of my desk and walked. I know this will put me and my family in some serious finacial stress, so, I am dreaming up creative ways to make extra money. Especially now that we have an extra car payment and another baby on the way. I have always prided myself on my inner strength and ability to bounce back, but I just don't have the energy for that right now. I have decided to go to the only place that I find strength when the world has stomped me. The ranch house ie my grandparents house. There in my fortress of solitude I can knit, spin, and crochet while drinking crazy amounts of sweet tea and eating things deep fried and covered in gravy. There I will think nothing about bad bosses and mounting bills and I will become me again. Rather than the blubbering idiot I have been reduced to these last few weeks. I mean when it is over it's over. There is just no use crying about it.